Here. Not here.

I’ve been in this weird phase for some time now. My mind, unfortunately, may finally be changing into that of an adult’s. Oh the horror! I’ve been doing mostly university work (dissertation, assignments, skill labs et al) and only been a passive observer when  it comes to the virtual sphere.

I’ve recently developed a love-hate (though more like dislike-hate) relationship with Facebook. I’ve deactivated and reactivated my account around 4 times in the past two months. I just don’t find anything useful enough to do on Facebook, but when I’ve deactivated the account, I get all curious as to what might be happening in my absence. It’s like a drug. And I need to get over these withdrawal symptoms. Really. This is one of those instances when you realize why a certain word is used to describe something. Facebook ‘addiction’ makes a lot of sense now, huh?

As for blogging, once again, I’ve been reading a few, skipping a few and not posting anything at all (obviously you know that). Same goes for my craft blog too. Thankfully, I craft just as much as before (maybe even more), but I just don’t post about it.

The reason for this lethargic attitude could be that whenever I switch on the laptop, it reminds me of my unfinished dissertation. This makes me feel guilty and I subsequently do nothing more than mindlessly surf. Yes, I know this is a symptom of trying to flee away from something I don’t wish to do (downside of being a Psychology geek – you tend to analyze all your moods in psychological terms and reach devastating conclusions).

I did however open an Instagram account. Couldn’t resist the filters. And such pretty photographs! Ideal for passive surfing. And then I enthusiastically posted some of my own clicks.

(If you’re a newbie Instagrammer too, then do visit me [Username : sanchari54] and we can hyperventilate about others’ jaw-dropping uploads together. If you’re not a newbie, you could still visit me so that I can gape adoringly at your fabulous work.)

Okay. Must get back to dissertation. Can you see it giving me reproachful looks from my personal folder over there? Ooh look! Butterflies! Golden butterflies!

[I shall return when I’m able to talk sense. Auf wiedersehen!]

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Where have I been?

Nowhere in particular. Just haven’t been blogging much.

But why? It’s not really like I’m out of things to talk about, but most of the time I just don’t get the time to actually sit down and write them out. This lack of time is mainly because of the whole process of having to apply to different universities and then worrying about how to sort of prepare myself for the many entrances I must give for them.

Next year, I may or may not be here at home. That’s because I might venture outside my hometown to take up higher studies. And to be able to get in somewhere, I must work towards it. Basically, I’m quite jittery about the not-so-far future. There are, of course, quite a few questions in my mind. Like, will I be a better academician/researcher or corporate worker? Should I even think of being a corporate woman? Will I ever be able to check all those papers if I become a Professor? Can I handle irritating students/co-workers? Can I handle annoying colleagues? Will I not fall asleep on a desk-job? Won’t the corporate world be too practical for me? Won’t the intellectual world be too serious for me?

Okay, I’m not that confused! I’ve answered quite a few of those questions already. So ya…I’m not that confused *I’m not, I’m not, I’m not*

Well, answers are being found to many questions on a frequent basis. Answers are changing depending on my mood. But I think I’m leaning more towards one of the two already.

Oh dear! What am I going to be when I grow up? Never thought it’d be so confusing! *sigh*